Woohoo! It's Disability Awareness Week and mayfield 5 is working with mayfield 2 to raise awareness on Vanderbilt's campus. Mayfield 2 is awesome for planning all of this!
well the point of this post is to talk about my own disability, something that I can't sleep off, push to the side, or get over, that is depression. I always wish I was normal. I wish I could wake up! get out of this dark cloud. I wish living came easy to me; I wish it wasn't physically painful for me to get out of bed. I wish I had something to look forward to, anything! I wish my peers would actually enjoy my company. I wish I had friends. I wish I had someone who understands. I wish someone can remind me why I wake up everyday. I have to hear that life is going to get better because I don't believe it. Many people think that I choose to be as unhappy as I am, but the truth is, it takes every little fiber in me to leave my room, to smile, to hold a conversation. I don't choose to hate life; the little demons at the back of my thoughts tell me it's not worth it, just give up.
I want to acknowledge everyone that hasn't given up because you all are my inspiration. Thank You.
